Before You Had the Words for the Weight

Running Up That Hill — Kate Bush

Chapter: The Blueprint Beneath Me
Playlist: The Seeker's Lessons
Song: Kate Bush - Running Up That Hill - Official Music Video

Some burdens start early.
So early that you do not realize you are carrying them until years later, when your knees ache and your spirit feels heavier than it should.

This song has recently found a new audience, but it’s been part of my inner landscape for far longer than that.

This song captures that feeling for me.

The effort.

The wishing.

The quiet child trying to make impossible things easier for everyone else.

If you ever tried to trade places with someone you loved, even in your imagination, you’ll hear yourself in this one.

It holds the ache of wanting things to be different, even before you had the language for why.